Day 8

I went to bed at 2 am last night because I assumed that I would sleep in until 10 or 11.  Wrong.  Classic case of my windows not having blinds, so I woke up at 830 drenched in sweat.  After 5 minutes of moving around a bit and dodging the sun I managed to sleep until 10, but was still pretty tired when I woke up.  I had a whole day to do...absolutely nothing.  It should've made me happy, but for some reason I had a strange loneliness feeling.  It kind of just all hit me that I was by myself out in the country, and I know that I am the one who signed myself off here, but it kind of hit me hard today.  I was by myself inside the house because Will and Dan were working on the farm, and technically today was still my day off.  It was a strange realization, because I hadn't put much thought into it until today actually.  Maybe it was because I was with my cousin and his college buddies, or maybe it was because I said goodbye to my brother yesterday, which was also sad.  It could have been a lot of things.  Anyways, ignoring that lonely feeling, I set out to go explore the land around the farm.  There is a river that runs through the very back of the farm, and I had never seen it.  So i left my room with my drawing pad, pencil, Cannery Row by Steiny, my phone, and my camera.  I felt like a child again; it was kind of marvelous.  There I was on a farm in Maryland, walking with a backpack down to the river, through a forrest of trees.  It was pretty exciting.  As I got to eh river, I realized how amazingly beautiful it was where I was staying.  There was about a 10 foot river, with beautiful green trees surrounding it.  The water was so sparkly, partly because the sunshine was reflecting off of it.  It was an amazing sight, and its hard for me to put into words.  I was just appalled by the immaculate beauty, and I dint really know what to do with this scenery.  I decided to take some pictures on my phone and my camera, but it was hard to capture the right photograph, because neither of them truly showed the vast landscape.  After trying to capture it with technology, I decided that I should just enjoy it, so I sat down and started to read Steiny, by the river.  I read for a pleasant 20 minutes until I could tell that my butt was starting to get very dirty.  So I got up packed my book up and decided to look for some adventure down the river.  I started walking and felt a few bugs under my shoes, and kept walking until I saw a pile of tree remnants.  I started to climb the fragile pile of tree branches, and twigs, and came across a plastic bag filled with what looked like little dolls, which was a little strange.  I looked close and they were christmas lights with little toys attached to them.  Still very strange.  It probably had some sort of ghostly curse on it, so I decided to leave it where it was.  After I found the plastic bag I decided to head back to the farm, because that had sort of fed my curiosity for adventure, which is kind of lame.  Just thinking of being a child, and adventure was around every corner, with a little use of imagination.  Where does it go.  Maybe we are just finding fallacies, that skew the way we see things as we get older.  Which stinks too.  So I walked back to the house, and Will offered that I could use his car to go anywhere, if I wanted.  That thought kind of intrigued me so I decided to look up things that I could do, and I thought maybe driving to eat a delicious crab cake might be worth it.  I told Will of the idea of driving about an hour and a half to get these famous crab cakes, but he thought it was kind of pointless since there was a town 15 minutes away that sold them too.  So that idea kind of got shot down.  It was a little after that, that I started to get that lonely, scare feeling again.  Sometimes I tend to worry about stupid things, and then i worry about myself worrying about stupid things, its really a dumb system, but it does happen sometimes.  So I decided to call cath and just check in see how home was going, and she calmed me down.  It was nice talking to my mom, because it just made me realize how crazy it really is what I'm doing.  Most kids my age who have had somewhat of a social life as I did, wouldn't last here on a secluded farm in Maryland.  And its hard to adapt, but I want to be able to conquer this feeling.  I set myself up for this, and I want to have an amazing learning experience.  I know I can, I just need to get used to it.  It still is only just over the first week.  I still have a lot of time to settle in.  After I talked to cat for about 30 minutes I took a nice nap until when the US Open finals started, and was pretty entertained by that.  I love watching tennis, because I love playing ping pong, and I always feel like there is some sort of connection.  Well, at least I did anyways, until I actually play Tennis in Lake Tahoe once.  Boy, was that tough.  But it made me appreciate the sport even more.  Anyways, so I watched a little bit of the game, then went and showered for dinner because we were having company.  Will and Kent had invited over two couples for dinner.  The two couples came over, and I kind of stayed by myself for a little watching the tennis match, one because I really did want to watch the game, and two because I knew that I would have more than enough conversation time at dinner.  So when it was finally time for dinner I went into the kitchen and introduced myself to everyone.  And then I reached for a cracker and a meat that looked somewhat like prosciutto, and it wash't but it sure tasted good.  So I asked Will what it was that I just ate, and he kind of laughed and didn't answer me, and then I was curious, and I repeated my question, with a hint of fear in my tone.  And he responded Horse.  Haha what? I just ate horse, thats insane.  I had no idea, and he also informed me that it was illegal to eat in the US, but the the two Swiss interns that were here before I left brought some over.  Pretty classic if you ask me.  So we sat down and ate a lamb stew, with a nice home picked salad, with a honey mustard dressing.  The lamb stew was a little to thick for me, and I didn't eat much of it.  But for dessert we had homemade cheesecake and lemon custard sauce.  That was really quite delicious.  Most of the conversation involving me was about colleges.  predictable.  But they all had a lot to say about different schools.  They all didn't have the best perception of how hard it was o get into some of the schools they mentioned, but I enjoyed their enthusiasm about my situation.  We made conversation for awhile, and then after Kent and I finished watching the Us Open which was kind of a let down because I thought that Nadal was ring to bring it to five, but nonetheless he put up a pretty solid fight.  Djokovic is much too consistent, and well rounded.  That was about it for my day off.  So on that note. Nighty.